In Japan, there is a book called "Rogue Moon", this book is not a romance, nor suspense, but a real gangster story that happened to a girl, this book uncovers a corner of Japanese inhumanism, exposing the horror and mystery of the bottom society.

The author's name is Tento Xiangzi, born in a gangster family in Japan, and was once a veritable "princess of the underworld", but later she was tortured by drug addiction and trafficking, and it was not until middle age that she woke up and wrote the book "Rogue Moon" based on her own experience.

Tragic childhood

Shoko Amato, born in 1968, was the second largest economic center in Japan at the time and a gathering place for Japanese yakuza forces.

The headquarters of the Yamaguchi-gumi, Japan's No. 1 gang, is in Osaka, and Shoko Amato's father is the leader of an underworld organization and has close ties with the Yamaguchi-gumi.

In the sixties and seventies of the twentieth century, Japan's economy miraculously rose, and its economic strength was like a huge wave. At the same time, those underworld organizations hidden in the shadows also ushered in a period of "vigorous development".

At that time, Tento Xiangzi's father was active in the real estate industry and the financial field, and his business was prosperous, and the family income was naturally quite rich.

As a result, she grew up with a luxurious life that many ordinary Japanese people would not even dare to think about.

Shoko Tento lives in a spacious mansion with a private pool, dressed in high-end designer clothes from Europe, and escorted by the world's top luxury cars.

However, in such favorable material conditions, she did not have a good childhood, on the contrary, her childhood was full of bloody violence.

My father sang every night at work in the underworld, and once Tento and his mother went to pick up his drunken father and saw three drinking girls beside him......

She never forgot the image of a man from the underworld who came to her door with heavy steps to atone for his sins, and presented his father with a bloody finger that he had just severed in pain.

The mother hurriedly blocked her daughter's view to prevent the cruel scene from casting a shadow on her young mind, but she still clearly saw the bright red blood slowly dripping from the man's palm, as if telling the remorse in her heart.

The father was furious at this, grabbed the object in the hall and slammed it at the man's head, while shouting angrily, "What are you chopping off your fingers for, you still have to work with it...... Xiangzi's childhood is full of such images.

His father's gangster identity brought Xiangzi a material life, but this superiority was evil in the eyes of outsiders, and he was ostracized and bullied since he was a child.

When she was in elementary school, she was often subjected to cold eyes and cold violence from her classmates, who would block Xiangzi in the toilet and beat her violently, and make Xiangzi do the hardest and most tiring work on her usual duty.

At the age of 12, in order to stop being bullied, she made up her mind to become like her father, and began to wear heavy makeup, pierced ears, studs, and dyed her hair yellow, fooling around with the children in her class.

She likes to drive a motorcycle on the street late at night to enjoy the pleasure, and it was also in this year that Xiangzi casually found a man to sacrifice his virginity.

Since then, she has fallen into the mud of promiscuity, riding around the city every night, and has more and more friends, but most of them are delinquent young people.

In the third year of junior high school, because of the fight and injury, Xiangzi was sent to the juvenile correctional center, but he did not show the slightest fear in the correctional center, but looked indifferent.

Eight months later, she was released from the correctional facility, and instead of reforming herself, she became more and more excessive, and once tried to use stimulants at the instigation of her peers, and since then her life has become even more erosive.

In fact, Xiangzi is still kind in his bones, once he picked up a wallet containing 180,000 yen on the street, and after a series of ideological struggles, she did not take it for herself, but chose to return the wallet, such a character is destined to suffer in the "underworld".

Life changes, huge debts, and repayable debts

In 1985, Xiangzi's life changed dramatically, when Japan was forced to sign the "Plaza Accord", the yen appreciated sharply, the economy plummeted, and the mafia organization slowly declined under the economic recession and the continuous strengthening of the police.

In 1992, the Japanese government passed a law against organized crime and the proceeds of crime, further reducing the living space of underworld organizations, and Xiangzi's father was naturally not spared.

Recalling the incident, she later told reporters: "When my father was in trouble, his health was in trouble, and he was in debt, the situation changed too quickly for my family. ”

Xiangzi's debt is also very tragic, one of his father's former subordinates, who is also a good friend and partner, once used as a guarantor in his name to do business, but died in a sudden accident, and this debt naturally fell on Xiangzi's father.

But at that time, the gang had declined, and his father's health was already old, so he had no income to repay the money. The creditor is not an idle person, since he can't repay the money on time, he will come to the door to smash and collect debts, and his father's health is deteriorating day by day.

Later, the creditor was also forced to be anxious, and proposed that if he could make Xiangzi his mistress, he could offset all debts. In this way, at the age of 19, she fell into the clutches of creditors and was later forced to have sex.

And that's not all, Xiangzi was also injected with drugs, and if he made the slightest mistake, he would be severely beaten, and then he was left in a dilapidated room covered in scars, and once he almost lost his life because of the beating:

"The thought that I couldn't just die in that kind of place, a motel room, where I spent a long hour, was strong enough to get home...... I know that these days must come to an end. ”

On that day, she walked back home step by step, saw her father in pain, and had no choice but to embark on the road of selling herself to pay off her debts. Perhaps in order to relieve the depression in his heart, Xiangzi began to accompany the creditor to take drugs, and if he didn't do anything wrong, he would be beaten badly, and he had to be hospitalized several times.

As time went on, she became addicted to drugs, taking more and more doses, and at one point she almost died before she came to her senses, recalling that "I realized it was time to get myself out of drugs." ”

Quitting smoking is very uncomfortable for an ordinary person, let alone quitting drugs, Xiangzi survived endless pain to get rid of the hell of drug addiction.

Xiangzi, who was reborn, also met many sweet-talking people, fell in love with one of them, and later learned that the other party was married.

Unable to stand this blow, she fell for a while, and once her sister called her crying and persuaded Xiangzi to return to the right path, and said that all the money she had earned in Fengyue Field was spent by her gambler husband.

Tento's heart trembled suddenly, he had to break with the past, and then delete the phone number of the person he loved and start a new life.

Wake up and start a new life

She arrives at the tattoo parlor and sits in a drawer full of tattoos of Jigoku Dayu, a geisha from the Muromachi period who is dwarfed like a snake with a dagger in her mouth.

In the eyes of many people, a girl tattoo is not a good word, but unlike others, the Xiangzi tattoo represents a farewell to the past and a fresh beginning. Looking at the beautiful tattoos on her body, she felt happy and happy like she had never felt before, and she was full of expectations for a new life.

Soon Xiangzi found a sales job and met the most important man in his life, the other party's name was Xiaoguang. Hyoguang is also a gangster, but she beats her bully accomplice and says goodbye to the yakuza for Shoko, after which the two come together.

Xiangzi was overwhelmed by the family's debts, but Xiaoguang stayed by her side without complaining and worked hard, but Xiangzi felt that Xiaoguang was not happy.

At the same time, her mother's death made her grief-stricken, and after careful consideration, she proposed to him so as not to drag her husband down.

At first, Xiaoguang didn't agree to this, but at the insistence of Xiangzi, she had to sign a divorce agreement, and she felt very uncomfortable looking at the empty room after her husband left.

At that time, Xiangzi's father was diagnosed with cancer, but his sister's in-laws found him to take the 800,000 yen for treatment and filled their son's gambling debts.

In the end, her father couldn't bear the torture of illness and died, and Sister Xiangzi finally woke up and chose to divorce her husband. All kinds of blows did not break Xiangzi, but made her continue to grow in the ups and downs, looking forward to seek a new life for herself.

She quit her job at the bar, and on her last day at work, customers and friends also brought her flowers, including a bouquet from Hyoguang, which read: I hope you are happy.

After that, Xiangzi called Xiaoguang and told him that he liked the flowers he sent, and Xiaoguang asked what he planned to do in the future.

"I want to follow my childhood dream, I want to be a writer...... You may think it's ridiculous, but I mean it. ”

Before hanging up the phone, Xiaoguang asked her to take care of herself, and Xiangzi began Zi's writing career after saying "goodbye, filial piety", and the book "Rogue Moon" came out.

The book tells the story of her sharp degeneration from normal childhood, as well as the process of fighting, drug addiction and fornication, and interprets the horror and mystery of the Japanese underworld with personal experience, and there are sometimes radical scenes.

Xiangzi also admitted that she still felt uncomfortable reading these contents, to which she once said: "But if you don't write it all, won't it be convincing?" When I wrote this book, I was ready to go naked on the street. ”

Unexpectedly, "Rogue Moon" became popular in Japan shortly after its publication, and was also translated into English and sought after in Europe.

Xiangzi will show his truest side on the blog, miss a favorite Kunbao for a whole week, write many diaries for his favorite cat, and thank God for a pink bracelet stone given to readers, and work hard to write, receive interviews, and communicate with readers.

Obviously, although Tento Xiangzi is in her 50s at this time, she seems to have returned to the sun...... What do you think differently about this?